In addition to frequent counseling (which has helped - I was lucky to find an amazing counselor from the start), I've been prescribed tons of medicine to help manage the issues I face. After nearly two years of being medicated, I can honestly say that I've never noticed an improvement or actual benefit to any of the medicines. It seems that we're always searching for the right chemical cocktail - the correct combination of both type and dosage and we always fall short. It's been frustrating because while none of the drugs have seemed to do any good, there's been no shortage of side-effects. I think the most frustrating is constantly being tired in the morning. Almost like walking in a fog or haze. The thought of being on drugs the rest of my life was rather depressing in and of itself. There had to be a different option out there.
A few months ago, my wife went to a conference (or seminar) and met a lady who does neurofeedback for a living. I'd heard about it for the treatment of ADD and ADHD. My wife got to talking with this lady about all of my symptoms. She offered to begin treatment. I was kind of skeptical, but had absolutely nothing to lose. She said that neurofeedback helps in that most situations, the 'retraining' of the brain (I don't remember her exact words) is permanent, the brain remembers (one exception being a child going through puberty or new trauman).
It's kind of interesting to watch the process, watch the information on the screen as it happens. As a computer geek, I find it all fascinating. The biggest change I noticed - which was almost immediate - was the internal drive/desire to accomplish things. It was like waking up with a to-do (or honey-do) list at the forefront of my thoughts. For the first time in my life, I was self-motivated to initiate, start and finish projects around the house. This has never happened before.
For me, this change has been incredible. For the first time in my life, I'm motivated to be productive. If I gain nothing else from the neurofeedback, it's all been worth it. I enjoy the satisfaction of doing a job around the house, doing it right and finishing up and moving on. I wish this had happened 40 years ago. There's been no other change in my life that I can attribute to this sudden urge to be productive.
I told her about this sudden change and she hadn't heard of neurofeedback having that effect, but wasn't suprised either. Also, the depression and anxiety have lessened somewhat too. That part is taking longer, but the results are still better than what medication has been providing. I can't wait to talk to my psychiatrist about the neurofeedback. It'll be interesting to see what his take is on it, but I'm sure he'll scoff at neurofeedback as a solution to some of the things that currently plague me. My therapist was thrilled when I told him last month. While he had heard of neurofeedback, he wasn't that familiar with it so I tried to explain it to him (doing a lousy job), and he was all for it saying, "Whatever it takes."
We fear or mock that which we don't know.
It's like when I was in a car-wreck in 2003. The diagnosis and treatment differed depending on the doctor. Some would scoff at using a chirpractor (if the injury was mechanical in nature - wouldn't it make sense that a possible remedy would be mechanical in nature as well?), others would chastise me for using heat on my neck for the pain, while others would warn me against using cold-packs. Depending on the day, sometimes cold would work, sometimes heat would work to help alleviate the pain. I got put on all different kinds of pain-killers, muscle-relaxors and anti-inflammatory medicines, all with little effect. What did end up helping more than the drugs, the therapy, the hot/cold, the chiropractor was simply getting one of those memory foam pillows from Select Comfort. This was on the advice of a friend who'd been in an accident and found that these pillows help. It's nice to make it through the night with NO neck and shoulder pain.
In addition to the neurofeedback, she also let me borrow a set of what we simply call 'The Roshi'. It's a set of goggles with LED lights in them attached to a small box containing the circuitry, controls and battery. They're simple to use, put them on, adjust the intensity to that of your liking and relax.
For me, using the Roshi has helped dramatically with my sleep. For the first time in years, I am able to sleep through the night. Gone are the nightmares I used to experience. Roshi simply allows me to make it through the night having had a much better night of sleep.
My 8 year old son also uses the Roshi and he's able to get a much better night of sleep. Also gone are his nightmares. Also, his sleeplessness is gone. If he does wake up, he usually relocates to our couch and is back asleep.
Here's some information I found at http://www.roshi.com/. I don't pretend to understand it all, but I'm a believer!
The Personal ROSHI Complex NeuroStimulation
System doesn't use the EEG, for its pickup, as does
other generations of ROSHI. Its complex flicker
is programmed to provide the brain with a "mythical"
picture, that of a brain totally at rest and attentive similar
to the brain of a Zen monk, in chips, as it were. ROSHI
induces the brain towards its "listening", not
talking, state.
When the brain is encouraged to "act natural",
it will become natural, given the proper operating
conditions. The pROSHI 'biases' the brain, towards
its native operating conditions, to which other
NFB trainings can be added, contemporaneously, along
the way.
Your brain, upon seeing this 'neurodata', will do its
best to clear up its internal errors and hangups, to
duplicate it. One can use their own NFB system, to
monitor and verify it. The pROSHI data does
not bleed thru, to "contaminate" the real EEG output.
One would only need to monitor and verify its
powerful results.
What this means, is that one can train the Gamma
protocol, using the HEG, Freeze Framer
or Wild Divine, for instance, while the pROSHI is quieting the
brain's baseline, from which it operates.









